As tipsy, as truthful

I can't think of a better time to write this blog when i am a little bit more tipsy. LOL... i just came back from Sooling(puroland) and Nick wedding. Writing blog when u are tipsy add a little more favor coz u seem to write a little more "truthful" then u usually will. This wedding was held at Orchid Country Club in Yishun. It was more then a wedding, it was like a gathering for me. Finally some poly frens meetup. This meet up was arranged a long time ago but never materialised. And it had to happen in a wedding night. LOL. Glad to see everybody still kicking well. A few drinks and we all just clicked like we are long lost frens.LOL

At the end of the wedding, there was a supposely a second rounds of drinks at a nearby pub to revive the old poly days. But one of the guys was kinda drunk. He was a kinda emotional guy since i know him during the poly days. He was still holding torch for the gal he known since poly days. Its a bit sad... Guys getting emotional. I wish i could be like him sometimes. But i just couldnt do it. I am too rational to do it. No matter how drunk i am i tries to control myself. Refusing to succumb to liquor and embarrass myself infront of everyone. Just my nature perhaps. Self Control is always important to me. Showing the strong side of guys... LOL.. all guys are like that i guess. Tats how the society made us up.

But not when u are a little tipsy. A little tipsy is good i guess, it bring up more guts one self. I am a little tipsy now thus i am writing this. Listening to some nice, refusing to sleep. Just enjoying the moment. I not a drinker if everyone mistaken. I can drink, but well.. drinking is not my forte, at times we need to rise to the occasion and show respect to the others. LOL. I had one more session next saturday. My cousin's Teng Teng birthday. LOL... show respect again. Trying not to get drunk, be happy and most importantly, everybody is happy. LOL.. thats my nature. My cousin had already booked me for that occasion liao.. Dragonfly. I like that place but not every week. But ocassionally my appearance is important, i had to go and mixed around. LOL.

Been watching TV and always seeing actors saying" feng cang zhou see" LOL.. its happening to me now. Seems like if i miss tat outing i will be left out. I will still go there, show my face and everybody is happy. Life is short.

Making everybody a happy day, it makes me happy as well. But always pleasing other people can be a tiring process. It still okie at the moment becoz i take i am someone who takes in family relationship very deeply.

I am drunk. But you won't to see this everytime. Only when the ocassion rises.

Some stuff have been bothering me for such a long time. I always not sure if i should pen it down. Maybe i should, just do it when i am a little more daring.

Its about me and a gal. There was lots of draging between me and her. And sometimes i wonder what is exactly wrong with that. Its more then just words that i can express. I was thinking of her for so many months... almost everyday, yes hard to believe yes, its true. Well, there was a lot of pressure for me to go ahead it never easy. Sometimes i was wondering, how can some people relationship just go as smoothly, but mine seems to be a little rocky. Things seem easy at times, but looked so difficulty most of the time. Could it becoz of the social differences that we have? I told my aunty about it. She only tell me, are you sure you want such a complicated gal? I dunno, i am a very simple guy. I am easily understood by most people. But looks like she isn't. There are so many things i wanna tell her, but it difficult. There is no chance. Maybe i wasn't as daring as i am now.

I was at the wedding. Every gal looked so simple, i was thinking why am i thinking of such a complex gal? Am i looking for trouble? Perhaps. People said love is blind, ya, i get wat they meant. When u like a gal, you just dont think so much about her negatively stuff and concentrate on the positive ones. For me i wish i had a chance to tell her about all the stuff that i had kept in my heart and .....after that carry on with my life.

It is simple. I think looking for another gal isnt difficult, it just take times. There are so many gals out there, waiting for me know, but its just that a stone is held inside my heart that i couldn't let go that was hindering me from carry on here. I know i will move on, easily, it just take time. I am not like my that fren, who held on that feeling for TEN YEARS, and not movin on from there. Its plain stupid. He is making everybody, himself and his family down. DS told me to let go, i think i will. Just give me some time. Once i lock a target, i will go over it like a cloud passing by.........

once again, i will talk like this when i am a little more tipsy with some nice music, hahaha wait for next tipsy section lor.........